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I've been thrown a curve ball, big time. I would rather not go into it. There is just a chance that because of health issues my move could be postponed. It really makes me wonder if I am supposed to be going or not. I feel nothing but Iceland now. That's all I really want, its all I see and its all I dream. But that might be my problem. Now that after all this time, family is becoming an issue. What can I do? Regardless of what happens I am pressing on with my normal plan, I can't afford to wait around and find out whats going to happen.

I got my passport pictures taken last night. I'm headed to the post office on Monday to get the whole deal processed. Strange and new for me, I've never had a passport before, never had use for one. After that I have time to wait around. Up to six weeks processing time. Although I'm sure they come sooner than that a lot of the time. Is there really all that much to process? How many people can really be applying around this time? What really goes into the processing? I am twenty one years old, have no criminal record and have lived in the same place virtually my entire life. I feel like my passport should be the easy one.

I have to play a Kodiakshow today. I hope it goes well. This will be the first show we have ever had where we didn't practice for it beforehand. I'm not worried. I will go there, talk small talk with a bunch of people I don't know and pretend to be their best friend for a few minutes, My band will barely talk to each other, we will play, watch the last band, say how much we loved playing there and then go home. Then we go and do the same thing next weekend and the weekend after that. Shows used to be fun for me. Feels like a chore now. I don't really know why. I think it heavily has to do with the attitudes I see in everyone in the band (besides Danny) its such a careless attitude, They have no care as to what happens or what we are doing.

Iceland needs to come sooner..