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I turned 21 last Friday. It has been a week filled with drinking and laughing. Also a week of spending boatloads of money. I actually tapped into my savings account yesterday. I am so ashamed I could cry. You might say, 'come on! It was your 21st birthday!'. I would say, I am going to Iceland in a few months and need to save every penny. This can't continue, it has only been a week and drinking is becoming a habit. What makes the pressure to drink even stronger is the fact that 90 percent of the time Kodiak plays at some kind of club, and generally alcohol is available and expensive. I need some positive encouragement about my trip. I think I am going to tell everyone my plans very soon. As soon as my passport arrives I think.

I told the rest of the band about it. They seemed bummed about Kodiak being out of commission for a while. But I will most likely only be staying for 90 days, returning, then Kodiak can run its course and I can return to Iceland asap. Its all so real to me now. Before it was something I was afraid of and getting stressed about. But now its just, yeah I'm moving to Iceland for a while :) Its a good feeling. As long as I can save some dang money!!